So I checked my marks a couple of weeks ago, finally after sitting on the fence in debating in knowing my results I bit the bullet and went on line. To my amazement I passed, yes I am amazed, my friends and colleagues are not. They knew I would do well and succeed beyond my expectations. I am now off of academic advisement and am in good standing to be admitted to the Honours program.
I registered last week for the 2011-2012 Fall/Winter Semester and in typical fashion debated on taking more than the alloted 40% course load I assigned to myself. In checking what I have left to complete my Honours BA, I realized I have quite a bit to go. For a moment it felt like I was looking up from the bottom of a very large mountain, but I need to keep reminding myself; its the journey NOT the destination. I've been toying with taking on more courses but the idea is a bity scary in the sense of meeting my work and school obligations with success. Curently with the course load I have registered for, puts me at 50% course load. Another course will put me at approximately at a little over 70%.
In the midst of this change at work I want to be able to create a new role in what I already do, but am stuck in what direction to go in. In my current role I have done pretty much everything and with no new project in sight that will challenge me in ways I have not been and no change to be promoted within the company my choices in avenues are definately different. If I can not move vertically at the moment I will need to move horizontally, the big questions are how? and where? Am still trying to figure this one out, and time is quickly passing me as I have to have some semblance of a plan before classes start after labour day. Am not going to lie, I am a bit freaked out and a little stressed about it.
I know I am not one to be complacent, but being uncertain is something I do not totally enjoy and that is what I feel right now with the choices I have in front of me. I do not want to over committ myself to something I am not vested in or will fail at. I do not want to committ to something I know I will not complete or even enjoy. Yet, I find myself feeling like I will be doing all of the above. I have a few more years left to complete my degree and what I would really love most is just do that full time and not have to worry about working a full-time job. However that is not a viable situation at the moment, alas I will need to make this work while pursuing this very personal goal of mine.
In an ideal world I see myself being able to take on my 70% course load as well as redefining and expanding my role at work. In this ideal world I will be doing these both very successfully to the point that I get what I need to be enagaged in my work life until I finish my degree.
What would you do if you were me? Do you think it is very advantageous of me to work full time and go to school full time these next two semesters? What would you do in your work life if you had the opportunity to redefine your role? Would you take it on along with school or would you just keep doing what you are doing and focus your efforts on school? So many choices, so muc to decide....would love to hear what you think!
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