So am just rounding the final bend of the two week marathon of assignments. It feels so close and yet so far, let me tell you I can taste the finish line which will be full of fun times, booze and probably some much needed sleep!
What I have learnt is that yes I thrive on challenges, ones that engage me these-well these were not full of engagement other than for me to get'er done and hand'er in. I did learn that I should plan more for these and incorporate breaks for a big glass of wine curled up with a tv program or book I have been meaning to watch and or read. Also the social aspect of just hanging out with friends, I SO miss that. I must get back to this as I feel like quite the loner, shut in at home, or a coffee shop armed with my laptop, various notebooks, binders and my trusty ipod. I want to just shed them for a little bit and scheduled some 'Fun-E time'. This my friends is a definite.
Work-life-school-study-sleep balance is a fuckin' doozy this go-round. I have consumed copious amounts of coffee, and red bull. Enough to make me realize that on occasion, I have caffinated myself just a wee-too much and had to readjust with a sleeping aid. I am determined to get this semester under control and at best pass with a grade anyone who is working full-time (and sometimes thensome) while going to school part-time can. I gave up the dream of pulling A's as these are not 'bird' courses. These courses require a different kind of focus, one which only someone who is going to school full-time can devote. This is not me giving up, but realizing that passing will need to be my only goal this semester. Any further pressure I put on myself could result in anxiety, and for someone who is truly harder on herself than anyone ever could be; would result in a death spiral of depression and disappointment.
So with that realiztion that yes, I can do three grueling assignments ove the span of two weeks while working full-time; that some things will be sacrificed, like: sleep, sex, fun, eating, fun, drinking, fun, socializing oh and did I mention FUN?!!!
I am not complaining, just stating facts, and with that there is tonnes of lessons learned here, which I will impart on another day when a lit-review of five scholarly, peer reviewed journal articles are not due on Thursday.
E, over and out till next post!
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Monday, November 7, 2011
Sunday, June 19, 2011
School---> work, Work---> school, School--->work; What to do and how much to do...
So I checked my marks a couple of weeks ago, finally after sitting on the fence in debating in knowing my results I bit the bullet and went on line. To my amazement I passed, yes I am amazed, my friends and colleagues are not. They knew I would do well and succeed beyond my expectations. I am now off of academic advisement and am in good standing to be admitted to the Honours program.
I registered last week for the 2011-2012 Fall/Winter Semester and in typical fashion debated on taking more than the alloted 40% course load I assigned to myself. In checking what I have left to complete my Honours BA, I realized I have quite a bit to go. For a moment it felt like I was looking up from the bottom of a very large mountain, but I need to keep reminding myself; its the journey NOT the destination. I've been toying with taking on more courses but the idea is a bity scary in the sense of meeting my work and school obligations with success. Curently with the course load I have registered for, puts me at 50% course load. Another course will put me at approximately at a little over 70%.
In the midst of this change at work I want to be able to create a new role in what I already do, but am stuck in what direction to go in. In my current role I have done pretty much everything and with no new project in sight that will challenge me in ways I have not been and no change to be promoted within the company my choices in avenues are definately different. If I can not move vertically at the moment I will need to move horizontally, the big questions are how? and where? Am still trying to figure this one out, and time is quickly passing me as I have to have some semblance of a plan before classes start after labour day. Am not going to lie, I am a bit freaked out and a little stressed about it.
I know I am not one to be complacent, but being uncertain is something I do not totally enjoy and that is what I feel right now with the choices I have in front of me. I do not want to over committ myself to something I am not vested in or will fail at. I do not want to committ to something I know I will not complete or even enjoy. Yet, I find myself feeling like I will be doing all of the above. I have a few more years left to complete my degree and what I would really love most is just do that full time and not have to worry about working a full-time job. However that is not a viable situation at the moment, alas I will need to make this work while pursuing this very personal goal of mine.
In an ideal world I see myself being able to take on my 70% course load as well as redefining and expanding my role at work. In this ideal world I will be doing these both very successfully to the point that I get what I need to be enagaged in my work life until I finish my degree.
What would you do if you were me? Do you think it is very advantageous of me to work full time and go to school full time these next two semesters? What would you do in your work life if you had the opportunity to redefine your role? Would you take it on along with school or would you just keep doing what you are doing and focus your efforts on school? So many choices, so muc to decide....would love to hear what you think!
I registered last week for the 2011-2012 Fall/Winter Semester and in typical fashion debated on taking more than the alloted 40% course load I assigned to myself. In checking what I have left to complete my Honours BA, I realized I have quite a bit to go. For a moment it felt like I was looking up from the bottom of a very large mountain, but I need to keep reminding myself; its the journey NOT the destination. I've been toying with taking on more courses but the idea is a bity scary in the sense of meeting my work and school obligations with success. Curently with the course load I have registered for, puts me at 50% course load. Another course will put me at approximately at a little over 70%.
In the midst of this change at work I want to be able to create a new role in what I already do, but am stuck in what direction to go in. In my current role I have done pretty much everything and with no new project in sight that will challenge me in ways I have not been and no change to be promoted within the company my choices in avenues are definately different. If I can not move vertically at the moment I will need to move horizontally, the big questions are how? and where? Am still trying to figure this one out, and time is quickly passing me as I have to have some semblance of a plan before classes start after labour day. Am not going to lie, I am a bit freaked out and a little stressed about it.
I know I am not one to be complacent, but being uncertain is something I do not totally enjoy and that is what I feel right now with the choices I have in front of me. I do not want to over committ myself to something I am not vested in or will fail at. I do not want to committ to something I know I will not complete or even enjoy. Yet, I find myself feeling like I will be doing all of the above. I have a few more years left to complete my degree and what I would really love most is just do that full time and not have to worry about working a full-time job. However that is not a viable situation at the moment, alas I will need to make this work while pursuing this very personal goal of mine.
In an ideal world I see myself being able to take on my 70% course load as well as redefining and expanding my role at work. In this ideal world I will be doing these both very successfully to the point that I get what I need to be enagaged in my work life until I finish my degree.
What would you do if you were me? Do you think it is very advantageous of me to work full time and go to school full time these next two semesters? What would you do in your work life if you had the opportunity to redefine your role? Would you take it on along with school or would you just keep doing what you are doing and focus your efforts on school? So many choices, so muc to decide....would love to hear what you think!
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